I Talk to Tissue – H

Hahaha! It’s true I talk to tissue! More accurately, I pray over it. Let me explain. Christ has been guiding me on how to get things to release that aren’t of Him in others. (Fear, pride, judgment, anger, control etc) those are the big ones that people carry that I try to pray over once I find those emotions trapped in clients tissue, I usually say a silent prayer asking Christ and asking the tissue what would it take to get it to release.

Best senerio is when the tissue happily releases the negative emotion and replaces it with a positive one. There are some stubborn cases (myself included) where an emotion doesn’t want to be released or only a tiny bit wants to be released at a time. It really is up to the person how much I am able to help release in them it has nothing to do with me. Let’s word that better it’s between them and God because I’m just the vessel of His love or at least that’s what I try to be.

Being a vessel of His love I need to stay in a space where I feel His Spirit I need to be in a space of pure love, His Love. That is a hard space to stay in! If I get distracted and start talking a lot during a massage guess what I’ve stepped out of the space of doing God’s will and I then am doing my will! Any release of emotions I do while I’m chatting away I end up picking up and carrying instead of releasing those to Christ. So me being still and listening is such a huge part of this offering.

There even have been times in the past I have carried too much of a certain emotion say for example if I’m angry at my husband, guess what would happen if I find anger in a client and start to ask to release it to Christ. I have had the spirit tell me I can’t release this emotion because I have too much of it inside of me it would attach to mine and consume me. So there have been times I haven’t been able to do emotional work on clients because of the emotions I had inside of me that weren’t of Christ!

I am building a self care practice of mindfulness, meditation and yoga so I can release what I pick up directly back to Christ right away. I haven’t been good at this and that showed up big time when I finally took this vacation where I turned my phone off and disconnected from the world for a week to find Him again.

Fear is my go to emotion, it’s all I have known my entire life. To be honest love used to be so foreign to me I didn’t trust it. Because fear was all I knew and trusted. I do know what it feels like to be without fear, with out trying to control everything. (being controlling stems from fear) I have been able to get myself free of fear… I got there once again on this trip. Williams Hall is a Christian church in Key west that offers restorative yoga classes as part of there community outreach. And there inside that church I found stillness. I let go of it all and I centered again on Him. I was reminded once again why this is something I need to do & keep doing as a daily practice I didn’t realize how far I had let myself go until I got back there again.

I am trying to figure out this next part of what should be massage practice look like moving forward? This is where it gets tricky. I have clients that book a 60 massage and their tissue only wants to release enough for a 30 min massage what do I do with the other 30 mins of the massage? In the past it has become a battle with your tissue and your tissue always wins. It only releases what it wants to and no more massaging it is going to convince it to do more. I end up depleted.

Worst case senerio is where a client doesn’t release ANYTHING! I can usually get stuff to release at least in the hands or feet.. but sometimes rare cases… I have probably done at least a thousand massages by now and out of those I have only ran across 3 where the client doesn’t release ANYTHiNG! Those are the absolute hardest ones of all. It’s as if their tissue says right from the beginning .. go ahead try it I dare you to get me to release. And of course I will try and nothing. Those are the most depleting of them all and I usually end up crying after those ones to help cleanse what ever I went through. Gratefully those clients usually don’t come back (it’s probably the worst massage they have every had as well because all they did was put up defenses and fight me the entire time) so I would image they leave feeling spent!

What should my massage practice look like moving forward if I am in the middle of a massage and it’s a 90 min but I realize I can only go for 60 mins is it ok to tell a client half way through their massage they will only be getting a 60 min massage?

I love my clients! I get to work with some of the most incredible people. I love what God has entrusted in me to do. In that moment when an emotional release happens an exchange is made between them and God where I get to see and feel how much He loves them. That is the most energizing & incredible experience. Those are the experiences that keep me coming back. Plus I get to witnesses miracles every single day and that to me is the best part of all.