The hard days – H

What are the hard days like? I had a day this week I woke up in fear. I’m sure I feel asleep that way too. In Fear, I let it control my thoughts instantly and I was spiraling in every direction in my head. Fear also lead me to moments of anger, pride & judgment… I did recognize it! And I got on my knees and prayed. Me and Matthew talked about what was causing my fear and why I went there. I also asked for a blessing from Matthew. This isn’t easy trying to stay in a space of love. It’s challenging I make mistakes every day. I have been promised Christ makes up the difference.

I have told Christ I am His, use me. Then I try and control the outcome still wanting it my will not His! Haha when I don’t like the outcome I still fight Him & try and control the situation but I don’t have His support when I do that! I am recognizing it sooner not letting as much damage happen and I am getting back to stillness. He is asking me to Be Still over and over again when I pray that seems to be the answer. Being Still will fully allow Him to work miracles. I am stepping back and letting it be His.

Something else I remember that helped, BrookeAnne had us all listen to this last conference talk from Elder Gong https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2025/10/25gong?lang=eng